Hello everyone, the last time I posted I had dedicated my quit to my late father which I really meant but we all know how things can go evern though we really want to happen that way, it may not. I drank real heavy after that second day of sobriety and try to drink myself to some other place than I was but when I woke up the next morning nothing was different except I had disappointed myself. I had to ask myself is this what I want out of life and if it was than just go ahead and submit to it. I thought about everyone I love and I thought about my hopes and dreams of just living a normal life and doing the things I want to do for myself and my family. Drinking has stopped me from doing all that, I can't achieve anything trying to live that lifestyle. I am nine days sober, first time in a long time and can credit that to the decision to pull out the little blue book I got years ago from a AA meeting that I have kept. It said in this book that willpower alone can't beat this addiction and thats all I have used. I have decided that I will hand over my quit to a higher power and except some help. It has been working along with continous reading of the blue book and this program. Thank everyone for the advice
