i have been here a few times and had relapse, but trying again, always stop for the same reason, btu always fall back for the same reason, AA program doesnt cut it for me, so i will start seeing somebody and also i have ordered a book calles, the cure for alcoholism, maybe this will give me an extrat push, cross my fingure that this time is for good, maybe if i didnt have this much lower back problem and problem to sleep because of it, maybe that would help, but the doctors say i am a hopless case when it comes to my back, they dont give me anything for the pain, so i will need to find another way to cope, my SI joint is finish and arthitis is in it now, i find that at 45 years old, i am to young to walk like a 95 years old, and now getting out of bed is one of the most painful thing, maybe my next book that i read should be learning to live in pain.
