Hello everyone,
I did the quiz and pretty much topped the scales. I have been drinking at least a bottle of wine a night on most weekdays...often more...sometimes 2... and much more than that on weekends. Right now I'm having muscle spasms everywhere. If I get the slightest injury it never seems to heal. I have a really bad memory...and I forget ALOT of things / conversations from the night before. I don't drink in the mornings, but start right after work most of the time. If I have to drive the kids somewhere in the evenings, I will start after that. I have driven in what I consider over the limit. Up to 3 drinks I will drive, but if I'm sloshed I won't....I know it's no different....it's just plain stupid.
I know this when I'm sober. When I'm drunk I don't make good decisions. Most of my friends know I drink a lot, but they only think it's when I'm out partying, or with them. I have a full time job, and I get to work each day, but sometimes I am getting over a hangover in the mornings. I wonder if they still smell it on my breath
I start, and I don't stop until I fall asleep. I know that this is affecting my health quite severely at this point. I didn't drink this Tuesday, Wednesday, after a major binge on the weekend....which was a blur in the evenings, but had a bottle of craft beer on Thursday, and a bottle of wine last night. I wanted more, but purposely didn't buy more. Today is Saturday, and I made it through so far sober.
I took a Gabapentin which I use occasionally for nerve pain, so I won't be tempted to take a drink tonight. I'm afraid to go to my doctor for help because I've been hiding this for years and I don't want this on my health record. I worry about my liver, and digestive system and malnourishment. I'm 30lbs overweight however. I have to take a high dose of magnesium everyday or get major muscle cramps in my legs. This has been going on for over 10 years. But I've been binge drinking since I was in my 20's. I tried AA a couple years ago, but it felt like church. I respect that it works for many folks...I may try it again...or something similar
Oh my....