Hello. I'm a new-comer to this site and thought I'd jump in and introduce myself. I've read a few previous posts and subsequent replies and see that the comments are very encouraging and I believe that is what I need right now. Long story short, I've struggled with alcohol for years and I've tried, on my own, to deal with it. I've cut back, a lot. Don't drink nearly as much or as often as I used to. But occasionally I still find myself overdoing it and end up beating myself up over it. In every other aspect of my life, I am so much in control. I'm to the point now that I have to make very conscious decisions to not drink today. Or perhaps I will allow myself to have one or two. If I'm not driving. I'm on my own now. Empty nester. I'd love to go out and meet up with friends, have a couple drinks and listen to a band. But then I'd have to drive home. And I just can't risk that. I'd hate myself if I ever did anything to hurt someone to take someone else's life. So now, I just stay home by myself, and I hate it. Sometimes I will buy some beer (can't drink liquor anymore) and just sit home and drink on weekends when I know I don't have to get out or do anything. And that's not good either. I know deep inside I need to just quit. And I do, sometimes for days, or weeks, even months, and then, after awhile, I think I have it all under control, let myself start up again. It's a vicious cycle. Anyway, sorry for the long introduction, lol, but this is me and that's what I'm dealing with. Welcome your comments and support. Thanks!
