Hi Desperate, you've already started by joining this site and posting in this forum....congratulations on taking the first step. We have all been where you are and understand how you're feeling. How long do you feel alcohol has been a problem for you? What brought you to this point where you're reaching out for help? There are many supportive, caring people here who are willing to offer you words of wisdom. I hope to see you continue posting. Best wishes to you.