Thank you Rayoflight and Samantha! I woke up this morning feeling really good. I signed up for the email support and I liked reading it this morning.
The thing I am most worried about is sticking to my goal, which is not to drink ever again. It's not the amount of alcohol as much as the WAY I drink that I find so disturbing. I mean, when I was a kid and thinking about my future, it did NOT include sitting in my bedroom with a bottle of plonk every day, escaping from reality.