Dear Cyndi,
"I want to quit smoking more than anything."
That phrase above is the true key to quitting! It does not mean it is easy, or without pain, but it does mean you will do anything rather than smoke!
Whatever it takes - just don't smoke!
If you can do that, you will have quit! SSC has supported so many people in their quits, and I suggest you let us help you.....................
Follow the programme, answer the questions, prepare for the cravings etc. Freedomby30 is right, you need to plan.
Stay close to the site and read as much as you can, post often, and don't let the hard times deter you from your goal of 'Freedom'.
Lolly.
(I smoked for 40 years and quit here at SSC.)