I have been absent for sometime. I have been reading almost daily and seeing the newcomer making a difference. There are so many of you. It is pretty obvious why I have been absent; I was smoking. I am sure many of you already knew that.
But to begin again requires some honesty. I left not only because I smoked again, I was reading way to many posts that were to negative for me and my quit. Now this is how I saw it and in no way any reflection on anyone. But when I would read that someone had smoked a cigarette and post it and not change his or her quit day drove me nuts. Again I want to stress this is my position. What works for other is their choice and not mine. I would read this and it drove me insane. The conclusion I have come to is; each person has to deal with their quit their own way. I am not here to judge anyone. I am here because I want to live a smoke free life and I need your help.
Another reason I left was because of vanity. I had gained way too much weight for me and could not deal with it. I know they say to make your quit a priority and the weight loss would come later. Sorry I was too impatient and couldn�t stand it, so that is one of the reasons I lost my quit.
The main reason for me to start smoking is that I get bored and forget I am an addict. Also, I would set goals and when I would get them I seem to blow my quits, so no more goals for me. When they say NOPE, there is a reason for it. For me there is not such thing as a puff. That being said, it feels good to be back.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/1/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 87
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $24
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4