[color=Pink]I joined back at the end of January I believe.. knowing I wanted to quit but felt I needed to give myself some time to adjust simply to the idea... I knew I wanted to but wasn't ready.. well I'm feeling pretty ready.. I'm down to about a pack and 1/2 left and I'm letting myself have them.. BUT after that I WILL NOT smoke again... I just finished reading through another quit program online and I'm 99% confident I can kick this and that I'm ready... I was originally going to give myself until my birthday next month, but I don't feel that I need to do that now... so Friday afternoon sometime I'll be out of cigarettes and will be done, but unsure on the time so I'm saying officially Saturday right now... That's less than 2 days... and I have a wedding to attend that day, but I believe I will be just fine... I'm not saying that I won't have cravings.. but I'm going to ACCEPT them for what they are and I'm going to just tell myself that it's okay to want one as long as I don't light one up... and that what I'm feeling is normal, but merely a sense of missing something... but I am tired of polluting my body, I'm tired of having non-stop sinus congestion and colds, I'm tired of being tired, and running out of breath.. I've always believed I would quit when I was ready.. and I wanted it to be sometime b4 my daughter was in school... and she's 4 now, and I'm planning on preschool this fall so the time is now...
I do live with my boyfriend who is a smoker, and completely unsupportive of my quitting, but I don't care.. I will not smoke after this is over... on the positive side, I've been smoking menthol ultra-lights for the past 3 yrs of my smoking (tho I did quite while pregnant and until I'd gone back to work after my daughter was born) and not once have I even wanted to smoke a "stronger" cigarette, and all my bf smokes is full flavored.. same with my mom and dad who smoke... so I will NOT be tempted by any of theirs LOL... I've always been a picky smoker in that I would only smoke my brand and all that and I would NOT smoke any other kind under any circumstances, so I'm hoping that since I don't know anyone else who does smoke them that will help me make it easier in that I would have to go buy a pack if I did want to smoke more...
Anyways, I'm ram