Good morning it is anniversary time for me again.
Week 17 has ticked over. Tomorrow it will be four months. No weekend away this month all the energy is going into making the new office a little oasis in the middle of the city. MMMMMMMM So I get to go shopping again, and then I get to go shopping, and then I get to go measure some more, look some more and then perhaps go shopping again.
And then after I have shopped myself out I get to put it all together. Don't know which part I like better and I really like reveling in the job complete.
I love, love, love what I am doing, for myself and my life. I may not be doing it right or the correct way and I am doing it. I may not have what happens in the timeframe of when and what is supposed to happen and I have never been like that even as an itty bitty kid. I have found for sure that doing this the way that works for me is the surefire way of doing it and having it stick. Part of the cold turkey approach. I have never been quit this long, I never thought that I would have either the strength or the energy to keep quit. It really is so much easier to smoke. No this quit thing this is complex and this takes determination and skill and lots and lots and lots of energy. And I am loving not smoking and benefits not smoking give to my life.
I get to swim better. The other night before practice the coach is having the team do stretches which turn into things like star jumps and push ups and a whole gamit of other motions that seemed to me more like exercise than a stretch. Well guess what, this cantankerous old geezer was able to keep up with the showboys those twenty five and thirty somethings. So I was able to do something that I never did before. Then I had to get in the water and I was able to do all of what was set out for me and feel okay after, well the next day I was a tiny bit stuff. Grins and adds "and I could still move".
There is so much on this little journey, that I have never done before. This kind of has me excited, looking for what is new, what is a fresh experience. Not that I was a stick in the mud when I smoked I did all kinds of stuff and now it is different I can do and I can keep up and I can have pride in how and who I am. I get more and more secure in the knowledge that what I am doin