Hi Everyone and Thank you for your posts. I am touched by your responses and you have given me a lot of support. I am thankful that I found this group. With that said, I am still at a place where I am unable to allow my thoughts to flow out. Perhaps I am afraid of them, perhaps I think I am crazy. I am a wreck inside.
Rose, you are correct. It is worth it if my son benefits. You're correct about my husband too. I tend to get more attention if I use the cold shoulder, but it's not me so it's hard to do.
Diva, I always appreciate your support. I know you understand.
Pete, thank you for your support. Your post put tears in my eyes. I had hoped I had helped, but feel a little hypocritical about myself. I'm great at "fixing" others, but not so great at doing it myself. I don't practice what I preach in other words. I know I must pick myself up, just having trouble getting there this time.
Brenna, I'll try to track my moods again. It was just hard to always write the same types of things. I became tired of it. In some ways it was easier to check in here and talk about what others were talking about. Not a wise decision, but the one I made. I will try to put your advice to use. I can't seem to stabilize the panic within. I did start back on Celexa this morning. I don't have much hope that it will help, but it's worth a try.
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