Loves trees.
I have known (past tense) two people, both males who were worse than apples. Unbelievably uncaring people that set you up so they can watch you fall. I have known two people, both females that look for information about you so they can use it against you. Both (professionals.)
I'm sure more exist in both genders. I don't know what they get out of it unless it is a feeling of power. Unfortunately I sometimes have to deal with these people. I never bring it home.
No I would not walk away. I would always presume there was a reason or possibly a misunderstanding. How words are used and strung together can change their meaning. I can find nothing to misunderstand in this post, does it only happen when you speak. Two different parts of the brain I believe.
My brother has a lot of anger, he uses it to get rid of stress and doesn't even know he is doing it. Some times he is hard to be around. I get second hand anxiety from him, he gets relief. We don't communicate any more. Even I could not take it anymore.
When beating the crap out of a pillow you need to laugh at the absurdity of it or it doesn't work. Otherwise it just makes you more angry. Especially if you can attach some one to the pillow.
I'm not sure if it is possible to be happy alone, but content yes. There are moments, but I catch myself thinking this happy moment would be better shared. Alone was a choice for me but not really of my choosing and I grew into it accepting it as how it would be. I was probably as happy as one could be under the circumstances. I was not totally alone. I did have a pet for company. Pets are better than apples at least.
My therapist uses the internet and feeds me sites that are of use to me. She would not send me to a site that was crap. Usual warnings about not believing everything you see.
Not a pill specifically but a large enough dose consistently would. You are too intelligent to do that. Tempting though isn't it. Some people do do that though. Enough time and you can't withdraw. Some people die in the process. I know one person in the process of doing just that.
Unbelievable the amount of medication she is on. I have two cousins using SSRIs to keep them in La La land. It is not pretty.
You have answered your own question here. Productivity is positive. Memory can not be erased so the negativity can come back if it isn't buried deep. Perspective. How you look at something in the first place dictates how you will store it and how it is stored is how it comes back. Covering it up leaves it available if it is not well buried. Better to change how you look at it before you store it if you can.
When I had Staph in my spine the pain was so bad I wanted to kill myself, but I never had panic. That came after when I got better and I had to pick up my life again. It always happens like that for me. The hope of getting better may be a block for the panic. Having to do something after it is better may be the fear that triggers the panic. (for me anyway)
I have trouble discharging negative emotions both when alone and when not. They seem to just roll in but I know there is always a reason. Some times I can tell them to just get lost and some times I need to drink calming teas and for me anyway, ginger mint tea and a gram of calcium usually works in about fifteen minutes if I practice relaxing skills at the same time. If it is really traumatic and I can not escape I have Valium. I seldom have to resort to that but will if I have too. There is no sense fighting it. The other thing I do is work in my shop at something mindless and distracting for about an hour after which I tell myself what ever was bothering me was stupid and not realistic. This usually works, but not always. Some times the anxiety just gets to be too much.
My therapist says that if you get eighty percent anxiety free you are doing good. With luck the other twenty percent is not debilitating. or at least can be handled with coping skills.
Davit.
