One of the hardest things is recovering from illness. I was quite active and productive, and then “crashed” yesterday. 
I don’t know if it was what I ate, or as a surgeon suggested after an invasive test, that “the stomach is a sound board” and I was under too much stress, but I just was fatigued, headachy and had a stomach ache and couldn’t sleep. Today I just did what had to be done.
That makes resuming my progress overwhelming, since I’m barely able to do anything, and all my achievements seem so unrealistic,
and I almost feel regretful trying to match myself. 
Doc thinks that I am(was) productive,
but then I crashed that day, and am so slow to get going again. It just looks uphill.
