Hi Stewed,
I'm sorry you had such a bad experience with this counsellor. But please don't let it stop you from finding some therapy.
If you are bothered by the fact that it is a man, is there any chance you could find a female counsellor? I personally don't think that is unreasonable as some of your core beliefs may have to do with either one of the sexes.
I'm also glad to hear that your husband is backing you up on this, and a little curious about your statement that he often blames you for mistakes....
When I first moved to where I am now I went to our local Military Resourse Center....I saw the Social Worker there once...she was a nice young woman, but I knew tons more about anxiety than she does, so when she asked me if I wanted to see her again I said I'd get back to her. Ofcourse I never did.
For me, even though I live in BC like Davit I have to pay for therapy ( I asked my doctor) and at around 40-50$ each time after insurance I can't afford that now..with 2 sons in college...but if I could, boy oh boy I would make sure that we were compatible and that they were there for me!
Good luck with it, Keep posting,
Juanita