Aha, go figure. Your current disorder was the answer you needed for the pessimism. So really, it saved you from the previous disorder. The half empty cup just keeps emptying out until you have an empty cup...now the real question I'm wondering...what are you going to fill that cup with? I say kool-aid...you've got so many flavors to choose from, and it's sweet! Everyone loves sweet. Or is that just me? Ok, maybe just I love sweet....point is, YOU now have a choice, so go for something you like. If you don't like it you can always empty it out again and fill it with something else. Who cares what's in the cup, you have a cup!