Hi All,
I haven't been on in awhile and wanted to let you know about the
strides I have made in the last few weeks. First of all I made it into
my first restaurant in about 3 or so years! my daughter is getting
married next year and we had to meet the wedding planner their!
I have to say when we got to the parking lot it was packed and
I said that I didn't know if I could go in, but my daughter was
running late so we went in to meet the lady first, I have to say
that yes I started to have the lightheadedness and the negative
self talk but I didn't run! I stayed and was able to mentally put
up a stop sign and blocked the loop of I need to get out of here.
I was their for over an hour! I was proud of myself when I was done!
Next I have been going into some stores now, the same symptoms
happen their and I have been using the same approach, I find that
even if I want to run but don't I can do some of things I want. Don't
get me wrong it's been hard but It is getting alittle better and I feel alittle
calmer the more I do it. But the biggest one was the last couple of days
my best friends mom passed and I was able to be their for her! I managed
to go to funeral home all 3 days! and sit through the service! It made me
feel good to be their for her in this time of sadness. I hope this helps
others know that it can get better we just have to keep working at it one
day at a time!! Sorry this is so long! but I wanted to share. Best to all.
Sweatbee
