Micah
I shattered a femur and it is pinned and screwed and I worry about falling and breaking it again.
Not because I would have to go back to the hospital again but because this time I might die.
Fear of death and not being there for family is common.
Add to that the subconscious thought that your next close call could be fatal and you have all the makings of a panic attack. All done subconsciously. It doesn't take much to trigger this if it is a big concern. Something hazardous you are doing or about to do, a movie or the news. This also happens more often to the financially stable than the person striving. (more to lose, less to focus on) And it can happen without you even thinking about it.
Panic attacks are best accepted and dealt with. If your wife can handle the stress it would be good for you to tell her. It brings them out where you can see they are harmless and lets them dissipate. Holding them in allows them to grow and show up more often and/or get worse. As you may have noticed by the number of people saying take a pill anxiety is very common. About one fifth of the population has some form and a lot of them are doing just that. Taking a pill. Pills won't cure you, CBT will but you may need the medication for a while to help the CBT. Pills alone can become addictive but pills and CBT allow you to absorb the knowledge you need in a calm way to cure the anxiety and panic and get off the pills. They are not the same as pain killers. But It is still your choice and we will honour what ever you do, there is no carved in stone way to do this.
Post often, even if only to vent. Ask anything and if we have a way we deal with it we will give you our solutions so you have something to work with.
The program works and you can take all the time you need. We will support you.
Here for you,
Davit