Yesterday was a very long day for me. I woke up anxious about going to my friend's graduation, early in the morning. My husband and I got there at around 9 am and there were a grip of people. It was already 95 degrees by then and as the day progressed, it got hotter. I met up with some other friends (whom I've neglected seeing thanks to my anxiety). We waited about 2 hours in the great heat and in the mass of population. It was so hard to breathe. My husband bumped into a HS friend and they ended up talking about some of the kids who died from their class! (Gaggg!!!) And as I was walking around to find shade, there were paramedics everywhere because of all the people who got heat stroke and dehydrated! I was terrified... there were stretchers everywhere and a girl was puking. Finally the ceremony was over. I wanted to go home but my friend invited us to her graduation bbq party. I figure I'll try it out. I was still anxious because she lives 40 minutes away from my house. After we got there, we started playing the Wii game and I was not feeling up to it. They served us food and I was hungry but I couldn't eat because I was afraid of feeling nauseous. I escaped to the restroom so many times, thinking of ways how to ask my husband to take me home. But I put up with it... and my anxiety reduced with in time. Now, everyone started talking about playing baseball and I was still wanting to rush home during this whole time. Everyone decided to walk to the park from the house and it was already dark. I started walking but I was so worried if anything happened to me how will I get back? We were unable to play baseball but we eventually started to play catch. I lost myself once we started. It was a dark warm night but I enjoyed myself and I actually forgot all my fears and my worries. By the time we were leaving, I felt so accomplished. I had such a nasty anxiety the whole day through, so I felt bad for not being so involved with my friends (my excuse was the heat) but in the end, I was happy that I at least felt happy at the end.
