I gotta get this done
Thanks to you all,
The doctor said that his cholesterol was 66 which means he is malnourished. I cook for him every two weeks, I take him meals periodically in between because the meals I cook only last a week (three or four different meats, vegetables, etc). His Thyroid is not working properly and they said this could contribute to his metabolic system malfunctioning. also his bilirubin (sp?) is elevated, his AST and ALT are out of whack. And they wanted to put him in the hospital tomorrow if he didn't appear improved.
I went out there today and started the conversation like this....Dad you are going to be mad at me AND my brother. he said, you are going to call the doctor. I said no we already did. I told him what they said, to drink Boost or Ensure, a new med, double his other meds and if he wasn't better by Wednesday to call and they would admit him to the hospital. I told him I thought he ought to go today and after much discussion (convincing) and calling my brother to get his opinion(he reluctantly agreed). We have an appointment this afternoon. He wanted me to know what bills he had paid and where the check book is/was. He was still mad, upset and I believe scared, but he is going. I think, he thinks he isn't coming home. I am taking one day at a time. No offense to anyone, but I am praying for the strength to handle what ever comes my way TODAY. I also called my psych yesterday and he said I could take the Klonopin more frequently (during the day) if needed. I have only been taking it on a prn basis in the day(occasionally) and for sleep at night (so to not have the side effects from the lamictal dreams. When I sleep during the day, I don't take it. It's like I never slept and go to bed at the right time.
I'm caught between wanting to sleep and anxiety. I am drinking coffee( I had quit) to stay awake, but that only increases my anxiety. But with stress, I just want to sleep, and do, it is my escape mechanism. I wish I could think of something else to help with the sleep besides something that increases anxiety.....but I do have the klonopin 3x a day now. I would ask for suggestions, but we are going to the hospital shortly and I doubt that I am able to get a response while we are there. If you are a spiritual person, please pray for strength for me and for dad! I'll be back!
In the meantime, you all hang in there and I'll catch up on your posts when I return. I will definitely miss this as an outlet. I have the sessions printed out, so I can continue to work on them! thanks again!!!!