Thank you. The new job was not in my plans for retirement. This job has shown me one more benefit of my sobriety. Thankfully, I was many years sober when I retired. If not, I would have settled into retirement and most likely dove deeper into alcohol. “What am I missing out on” would have never crossed my mind. I'm 56. There's plenty of time for a real retirement. :)
The loss of both parents has been tough. A month shy of my one-year quit date, my mother suffered a brain injury in a fall and never regained consciousness. I was so angry at the way in which she died, all I wanted to do is drink. The stress, pressure, and grief didn’t help. It had been almost a year since I had drank so I was gaining confidence in handling life’s disappointments without the aid of something in a bottle. I am a very disciplined person in every aspect of my life, except with alcohol. I KNEW if I had one drink, it wouldn’t be long before I was back to drinking every night.
My dad didn’t pass from an injury, but it was completely unexpected. In less than two weeks, he went from being healthy to being admitted to the hospital for pneumonia, to the ICU, and passing away. This was in April and I was sober for almost 7 years. Knowing I can live without alcohol made it easier to say no this time. That doesn’t mean I didn’t want it though.
I wish there were a magic formula for staying sober. I don’t think it exists because everybody has their own “why.” For me, my “why” is I don’t want to live the life of someone who needs to drink every night. I was, and continue to be, honest with myself and know that one drink will most likely lead me back to being an everyday drinker. The experiences with my mom and dad have shown me the pull of alcohol will always be there. Thankfully, my “why” is stronger.
I will be forever grateful to this site for providing words of insight and encouragement. Thank you once again!