Hi Steel roots. so glad to see you back.. I had to change my attitude.. I now understand that I am not giving up anything.. I am gaining. taking back control. When I began smoking.. it was not thought of as harmful, addictive, etc. there were ashtrays in Dr offices, movie theatre lobbies. So now we have discovered the harm, poision, and addictive nature of the beast.
I have decided to take back control.. I will no longer be a slave to a little white stick that is trying to kill me, that promises everything and only takes, like a leech. I undertsand the craves are not pleasant, but the only way to get rid of the addiction,, and eventually the horrible craves is to say NO, smoking is not an option today.
I finally know.. what it is to relax. I am not running every time i get a thought to light up, I'm not counting packs or smokes left in a pack. I am not running outside trying to find a place to light up. I m not cleaning ashtray, ashes. I am not worried if I get close to someone ..how do I smell to them..
I used some lozenges the first week I kept them close, sometimes i would only use one for a few minutes.. and save the rest of it. I think I used 3 or 4 a day. I did keep the package with me.. for a week or 2.. kind of a security, but if I did get a bad crave, I had something...
I know now, that if I take one puff.. i will wake up a sleeping dragon.. and i will awaken and tease the craves.. so smoing is not an option.. for today..
Bonnie.. sending warm thoughts for your special Day 1.
My Mileage:My Quit Date: 5/7/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 77
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,309
Amount Saved: $261.80
Life Gained:Days: 10
Hrs: 2
Mins: 50
Seconds: 54