Hi Stu,
A drama king, huh?
Alright Drama King, I've got a challenge for you:
Answer these questions (not here on this post, but for yourself):
Do you have a family? kids? pets? if not, do you want them?
Do you have any goals? dreams? desires?
Do you enjoy what you do? if not, what do you want to do, really?
Do you have any real needs that need tending too right NOW?
Why do you keep putting them off?
Now listen.
I used smoking as a way to procrastinate living my life, taking care of things, in a word, claiming RESPONSIBILITY. You aren't a kid. There is a time we need to get responsible and take responsibility for ourselves, our lives, and the CHOICES we make. As long as you can take responsibility for your choice to keep smoking, and be OK with that choice, then so be it. You are the only one who has to truly face yourself in the mirror at the end of the day. As far as my mirror goes, in a word, HONESTY. Looking in that mirror and getting honest with myself is the best thing I can do. And I am doing it every day now. And also really looking at my life. And when I decided to quit, I decided to quit. I didn't choose. I DECIDED. I stopped. That's it. I stopped. NOPE. End of story.
Think about those questions and ponder your universe for awhile. Figure out why you keep slipping. What are you really choosing to do?
I am going to challenge you to do that for yourself today. And your challenge will be to NOT smoke while you are doing it. :)
Let us know how you are doing.
Many Blessings,
Eve :)
Proud to be a C.A.R.E.
(Crazy April Reformed Exhaler)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/8/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 21
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 174
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $63
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32