Hello
I am not one of those people who have been smoking since they were 16, I started smoking when I was 21 because I simply enjoyed cigarettes. I like the taste and the smell, perhaps I'm weird. It started with cigars, and progressed. I mostly just smoked socially at work and bars.
Due to financial reasons, I stopped smoking all together about 2 months ago. I have been craving cigarettes very badly for the past two weeks, and last night one of my coworkers gave me one. I have never received such a buzz and satisfaction from that one cigarette, & I bought a pack last night.
what I want to talk about it is, did I fail some sort of quitters test, per se? Once you get past the really bad cravings does it ever go away?
I also notice that I am so much happier now. The past two months or so I've been very depressed. I've been getting in fights with people, I was blaming it on the winter time. But now after just two cigarettes I'm back to being happy and positive.
for as much as I smoke, which really isn't that much I think it's worth it to stay this happy. at least that's how it seems to me right now. I only smoke about a pack or two a month at most. I go through phases where I'll have 3 today and then I won't smoke for a week.
I don't really have anyone to talk to about this so I just would appreciate your inputs.
I realize my problem is small in comparison to most.
