Hi:
I did the stupidiest thing AGAIN...I wanted help so I sent a LONG email
to my vp. I told him what I did last night, not a smart thing to do. NO RESPONSE
I asked if our school division can get resources or help me now. I guess it is just for
students and not staff.
I guess,No one really cares, and usually I get thru these things and NO ONE knows
in admin. Now did I destroy my f'n career, I loved and said if I don't have
that with those students, what willl I have? The SAD part is they say there
is services, and they tell you to tell others, but NO ONE listens, so why
try to do the right thing?
Struggling thru.....I know you are not a crisis service, and I tried...but I will
try tonight if no one calls, I promise....I will be sad, and angry, and hope
the professionals can come up with a plan for me. The agency wanted to
stop my therapy as of yesterday, then they conceded until I see my shrink.
I do NOT know if I can work with this therapist again, as I know she is
saying what I have, she can't help me with. She is afraid it would not be
helpful for me, however there are NO other ones who will look after this.
I am hoping my shrink will call, but all he says to me, is YOU know the
crisis services, use them etc...... I tried and look what happened......
I have sent out so many warning signals, but people are just too busy, or
NOT know what to do with me, just like my therapist. I don't deserve
that treatment, but that is all I can get here. Thanks for being a support,
I will just see if any one calls, b/c I tried to reach out....I will be OKAY
I really appreciate how members and educators have really helped me
this week. I am now going to sleepy sleepy......Bye Bye for now
Another thought can be the VP was NOT at school and did not get my email,
or other crisis have occurred in the school, and my priority is LOW again. I
should be patient with waiting, b/c that is all I do lately, wait for shrink,
wait for therapist....etc....why
I am sorry for rambling on, as I did that last night, and I may have LOST the
only career that meant so much to me. Hopefully this will NOT be the case
and I hope that people at school division understand and have a heart. I
just wish health professionals or people in power would listen to how much
this has hurt me, beyond comparison of anything else I have endured.
I am just venting as there is NO one to talk to and I feel lonely.....Thanks
Any suggestions for me or comments, and I know you are all sorry this has
happened, so am I. As the educators knew, I was posting this week very
thoughtful posts and I was on a good high. Now you know the mood
I am in. However it is not OVER for me and I am scared and frightened.
right now.