Hi Ashley, thank you for your thoughts. You made me remember one time I decided to not cut off a person, after being disappointed like this, and that maked me feel empowered at that time. Although it was a very toxic relationship, not having resentment around that person maked me felt light, with full of life. I remember I started saying more jokes and making my family laugh with me, because this was changing my mood in other aspects of my life.
At the end in this particular toxic relationship I should have ended because at the end I payed a big price because I neglect my health.
But in cases we aren't at risk, I think you are right, not cutting relationships based on disappointements is kind of liberating because we don't carry hard resentments that put us in a constant mood of sadness, I think that's what happens to me.
Do you know when I was young around 19 years some guy decided to tell a lie that we had intimate relations, and my friends told me I had a risk to get pregnant (I was new years eve night, I drinked for the first time, so I put on hipóteses if the guy was right and may be I didn't remembered) , so it was my friends who scared me.
We were a group of close friends, around 5 girls, and no one called me to know if I was alright, or if I really got pregnant after this event.
I cuted relationship with all of them, for the first time, because of my disappointed of no one cared about me or how I was, or if I really got pregnant or not, no one called me to know how I was. (And it was a lie from the guy, but my group female friends didn't knew).
Facing this harsh reality at young age, that people don't care about each other, makes me decide to cut with everybody that disapoints me, but this decision are making me very alone, because that reality keep showing with every new relationship I have.
Yes you are right, I'm putting in black and white, may be I have to write this on a papper to carry on my bag "nobody is totally good or bad" for me not forget, I think this will totally change my perception of my daily life.
Have a nice weekend Ashley.
Note: I think this little talk with you valued more than the last whole 8 therapy sessions I started recently. Unfortunately I'm not finding any help with the one to one therapy Ive been trying.