Hi There:
Before in Nov 2008 when I tried to do this program it did not feel right
for me. I stopped for a while, tried in April 2009 and now I am trying
again. HOORAH, this time it is making sense....
However, this time it feels different. I am ready to do a thought record
on how I feel what happened with my therapist today. I know she
is quite busy, but I just needed a re affirmation from her, that my
calls last week was okay. I did not get that acknowlegment, instead
I could only see her for a minute. I thought I was intruding as it was
not my normal therapy time. I was dismissed very abruptly, is the
way I thought.
I am going to do a thought record and see if I can see it from a positive
point of view. She is busy, she is swamped, many people to counsel.
If I miss an appointment due to holiday I have to wait 14 days, even if
I am in crisis. Now I have this forum if I need support or validation
or just someone to talk to.
Last year, I was scared of doing thought records, and I wanted to
stay away from them. Today, I am willing to try again and I am
now in Session #4, and I am DOING my homework and learning
this CBT program and feeling GOOD about it.
Thank You, I just wanted to share that, before I go to bed.
Tonight, I have made many posts, but doing this program has
answered some of my questions. My thoughts have a lot
to do with my actions and my feelings. I have bought that
Feeling Good by Dave Burns and a Self Esteem workbook,
but I would NOT read them for over 7 years.
In fact the exercises in the depression workbook, took me to
10 years at a crisis centre before I did the exercise. I have
a block on cognitive distrotions, but at least now I am
willing to try and ask questions if I don't know. As I
tell my students "No question is a stupid question", as
you may have the same question as someone else, but
they never asked it.
Well, I should do my housework and get ready for bed.
I am glad it is Friday, as I have a 25th to go to on Saturday.
I have an EA conference I am attending next Friday.
I am going to meet with my vp to see what topics,
we would like presenters to
give to our ea's on pd days. I want to go on the pd
committee for our school, and I wanted them to pay
for conference ($55) and membership ($10).
I
I paid for myself, as waiting for approval, I would
not get the workshop I wanted. As it is I
wanted how to motivate the reluctant learner. It
is full, but I am hoping we can have our own pd
on that topic. Windsy
