Hi, Victoria,
I am so happy foryou
I have a cute story about when I first had to face my fears. IMy husband had been drafted into the Army, and my first son was about 1 week old. So we tried the Governor and all kinds of connections\but no deferrment.
So, here I was, infant, no money coming in yet, and all this time on my hands. I had to stay home because of my son, so what to ddo? IMy neighbor helped me look in the paper, and we found a job seeling brooms and mops over the phone. I got that job,and on my very first call, I froze! This big mouth could not utter a word. What to do? My neighbor told me one thing, and it has stuck with me all these years. She said "Worst comes to worst, hang up..but remember this: They cannot see you..it is a telephone." She was right and that was all I needed to hear and I was fine. Think about it..the telephone..no one can see you, they cannot touch you, you can be aanyone you want to be..what can they do?They can't check on you. (This was many years ago..no caller ID). So I was on my way to selling brushes on the phone. That was, indeed, a giant step for this panic stricken new mother.
You have taken a giant step by calling your doctor...please don't forget to fill us in..let us know you are OK, please?The telephone thing, as I call it, will be ok, when you feel stronger. That is going to come real soon. You will be able to do this, when you come to grips with this disorder.
Reda all you can, for thee is nothing like education. When you understand that you are not alone, then you feel better.All of us hre at this site have similar problems. Some have worked thru their problems, some are stuck in the middle and need to move forward, and some are beng pro-active. That involves dedication to assuring understanding of the disorder, and taking the necessary steps to work thru what ever it is that is holding them back.
We are here for you.
Red
