Galadrien,
I hope to learn how to deal with my anxiety and panic in a constructive and healthy way. It's the physical effets that really get me. I don't want to just ignore it to make it go away, I want to deal with it so it goes away forever. I don't want to feel broken and battered any more. My children have lost their father, they deserve the best of me. They don't need to lose their mother too. It's not easy to give them the best of me when this anxiety cripples me. I won't let it beat me. And if this doesn't work, I'll find another way.
It's impossible to be optimistic when you're in panic mode. My bad days still way outnumber my good. I'd like to be able to tip the scale in my favor. I hope that with this program I'll become more educated in the problems I'm experiencing and thus be better equipped to fight against them so I can function and give my children a normal, happy childhood.