Rough night. I can't lessen the effects of the antibiotic except for the anxiety. That I did manage so I could sleep. Basically it was repeating that although it was unpleasant I could live with it. I did sleep so tonight should be better. Actually some of the gagging, can't breath feeling was lessened also. I still have the low grade head ache and I'm still half asleep. Having a cup of tea and thinking about breakfast. 28 more days, I can do this. Big difference from the night before.
I'm far less irritable this morning. Lets see what I can do with the day, I have to go to town for supplies and two appointments that I'd rather not.
You do have safe people, people who are here for you, in the good times, and the bad...I'm certainly one of them....you take as much time as you need.... if you are anxious or in need of support, please reach out to us..(me)..you have helped me so much in the past few months....if I can return that favour...wow, it would be an honour... we are all here together...
Being a non-sports woman, I clarified with hubby what you meant about being on "the bench"...haha.....ok..thats fine.....rest up, heal, and always remember I am here for you..
I'm going to try to see if thought exposure can lesson it, but since it is chemical it might not. I know just knowing you are here has lessened it. Guess I do have safe persons :-)
I am here for you and will standing by you through this. When you are feeling really bad come sit on the bench with me. We can imagine ourselves watching and listening to the birds in the trees or we can dream about fishing on a beautiful lake or next to a quite stream. I check this site off and on most of the day and night and up until midnight or later most nights. If you need someone to talk to I will be here for you. Know you are not in this alone........Try to imagine me by your side and I will be there with you.
We are here for you! Many of us think of you as superman because you have battled so hard and are such a great help and inspiration, but it is 100% okay that you are going through a rougher time for a little while. You know what is causing it, and just have to use all the great coping mechanisms you have developed to ride it out. Regarding the extra stress that is also going on, make sure to take some extra time to do relaxing things you love and do little things to treat yourself a little kinder during this time.
Two weeks into this medication and the side effects are really hitting hard. Some of them you don't even want to know. I have four weeks to go and it does not help to know it will be better then. I have a fight on my hands. I have no Idea why it causes panic but it does. Not the horrific panic attacks I used to have just low grade annoying anxiety. So people I get to ride along with you for the next month. I don't like it but I had forgot what you are going through till I started this medication again. That is how good I was and that is how good I will be again but for now I am back to calcium and Lemon Balm tea to keep it at bay with the odd half a valium when it won't let me sleep. I have been able to talk it down most of the time. But this is a definite Chemical induced panic. I also have a lot of stress in my life right now. Maybe if there was no stress it wouldn't hit so hard. Seems the first week was fine. One conciliation is that it is doing what it is supposed to do. I would have a lot more panic if it wasn't. Good to know I have friends here that will understand if I'm not my usual cheery self. Sorry but the me you knew will be back in a few weeks, maybe sooner if I can wrap some positive thought around this.
Any body out there having trouble getting ahold of their panic might want to look at medications they are taking, including OTCs. Antibiotics aren't supposed to do this but this is really a high dose 24/7. Like I said it is just constant anxiety and it will go when I am off the meds. In the mean time make room for me on the bench.
I couldn't agree more...what you put out comes back, and around...we are all together and connected my our energies..both positive and negative....and it usually doubles....It makes perfect sense to me. A little meta-physical..but what the heck! ha
I'm so happy that your scary dragon is gone! Those spikes and red eyes! creepy! Good for you...you are the most resilient person I have ever met...and I haven't even met you! haha! I'm still sending out those positive get-well soon "vibes"
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