AWWW fanks you guys but dont be too proud of me today .
Had an awful night , plenty of attacks . I wish i damn well knew why . Got up a complete mess today infact nearly lost it . My throat is awful only easing for a little bit at a time , im fuzzing all over .
I just about went to shops to get stuff for dinner , cooked it and done ironing . I actually cried today , MIL caught me and hugged me bless her . Going to miss her when she goes home next week .
The only thing i actually think is worrying me is my work . My mum works so hard and has been covering for me since January . She looked pale and tired the last time i saw her . I miss the money and also i paid my parents for a very expensive TV out of my wages every week . Im so behind .
Well i phoned today and officially quit , it was a massive thing for me to do but i want her to try and find someone else to help her .
As for the weight havnt been dieting just not eating good , please dont tell me off i do try but its so very hard having such a tight throat most of the time .
ooo all upset now have to go for abit .
Hope everyone is having a fantastic day take care CD x
*grabs and hugs Miki* and Koneko thanks for the encouragement . 
lost another 2lbs thats 9lbs this week but am picking more today .
cd xxxxx
