Hi She, One question and a comment here. First- Do you feeling you havent been able to eat due to a choking sensation when you try? Or just loss of appetite all together? Second- ER doc's unless you come in with a full panic or something they "see" wrong, will just send you out the door most of the time. Also, if you suggested the IV to them, they would dismissed it just as fast. The best way to approach this situation is to see your regular doctor, explain you haven't been able to eat, losing weight, and loss of thirst. Casually state you feel, this is becoming unhealthy that you are concerned, but fear that you may have dehydration. Don't mention getting or wanting an IV. The doctor will test you then for dehydration, probably run a few blood tests, just to rule out anything else. But the point being, You will be taken more seriously. God Bless, Trish

I physically can not eat or drink. I have been this way for 3-4 weeks. The er sent me home and I have been on the phone with mental healthall morning trying to be seen today. I want an IV I want help. This is driving me insane. I am depressed. I am close to tears.....I feel like ****. The er doc was a royal pain in the arse and said Its all in your head go home and eat. I am not giving you an IV

Shedav what happened?

I can't eat. I am so close to tears and I feel so weak. The er wouldn't help. They told me to go home and eat. =0(

Sarah, I’m in that stage too! The constant fear of dying suddenly from whatever. Changes all the time. One day it’s a stroke the next day it’s a freaking heart attack. The depersonalisation is the suckiest part, I agree. I still get it sometimes but it only ever lasts for about 10 mins or so. Not as bad as it was. I do prefer the fear of sudden death over depersonalisation anyday! It shifts from one thing to another. Ergh. It’s really helped me doing this panic program, I’m applying the techniques I’ve learned all the time. With this fear of dying thing I’ve been talking to it like it’s a salesman trying to give me a bad deal. So it’s “what are you trying to sell me now?!” when an anxious thought creeps in. Internal dialog is extremely important for determining the outcome of this hideous disorder. Shedav6, I’ve been where you’re at. I thought it was going to last forever too. Couldn’t see a light at the end of the tunnel either. How long have you been a prisoner for? Try not to feel guilty for being so dependant on your family. Guilt will only make it worse. You gotta work through this in baby steps. As frustrating as it may seem at first. You do start to reclaim your life back. My husband was on my beckoned call for about a month too. He had to go away on business during that bad month too. That was horrible having the house to myself for a week. (we don’t have any kids) But I did survive. I spent most of the time either on the phone to him or on the internet or with friends while he was away. I was so scared of having an attack while alone. Going to sleep at night without him was the worst part. Needless to say I didn’t get much sleep which makes it worse too. But after all is said and done I’m glad I proved to myself that I can do it and survive. Take care and try not to beat yourself up over it. :)

I do . I DO. I am mom to 3 and this week its been them staying home from school to take care of me. My husband who never cooks has been cooking for the past 2-3 weeks and did the grocery shopping last night. I feel as if I will never see "through the panic" and come out the same on the other side. I hate living with this illness.

Hi Everyone, It's so nice to have people in the same boat. I swear I could've written half of the posts that I have read at different periods of this illness. That depersonalization-not feeling human, feeling that things are so strange, has been one of the very worst stages ever!! I think I almost prefer the stage I am in now (constant fear of sudden death) over that. I really thought I was going out of my head for several months-I even thought I had dementia or Creutfeld Jakob disease or something! Anyways, that's all passed and now I'm into another phase and this one sucks too especially since I have been agoraphobic for the past month. Strange how it seems to move along through a continuum changing your fears through time. I hope this stage ends soon but I really feel there is something wrong with my heart this time. How can this be in my head?! I don't know- I had these crazy headaches in the same spot all the time for months and I went to a ton of doctors hoping they could figure it out. No one ever did and they seemed to stop as mysteriously as they started. So now it's my heart-great, can't wait to find out what will be next. By the way, I am not actually fearful of the shower, it's just that my heart always starts pounding or racing when I'm in there-no idea why. I've never had a panic attack in the shower.

*Big hugs* to everyone. Although the saying 'it's all in your head' is very true. I gotta say I'm so sick of hearing it! I feel bad for thinking along the lines of: this has got to be the worst disorder in the world. I'm glad to know others think the same thing. I compare panic attacks to someone close to me dying. Then wish it were a death instead of the panic..and then feel horrible for that! I'm wondering now if my anxiety was made worse by being around death all my life. My family worked for a couple of funeral parlours. So growing up death always fascinated me in a positive way, as supposed to scaring me. I wouldn't trade my upbringing and experiences in for the world, don't get me wrong. I just want the positive effect it used to have on me back. I've not had a fear of the shower but I can relate to feeling worthless and even suicidal. I don't think I've ever truly been suicidal. I've had suicidal feelings though. But even then, I knew I'd never do it. No one has the right to kill another person, including themselves. :) On the shower topic also, it may sound extremely cheesy but when you look good you feel a little better for it. This has helped me to get out of bed on some mornings! It's just the cleaning routine in general really gets my mind of the anxiety. Routine is very important I feel for anxiety. Anything to get your mind of the prospect of having an attack. I have heaps and heaps of mini attacks through out each day. Having a routine, or just something to do, is wonderful for preventing a full blown monster attack. Even if you just lie down and meditate, it's still doing something. Routine doesn’t have to mean busy busy go go. I've become very fond of living in the moment because of panic attacks. I don't mean live in the moment in the wreckless sense. But in the sense that I monitor what I'm doing. Helps me to get things into perspective. So I'll say to myself something like "right now I'm making a cup of tea and theres nothing stuck in my throat to choke me" Silly as it may sound I say these kinda things to myself all the time. Because I too live in that horrible fear of dying. It truly is the hardest thing I've had to cope with so far in life. I'm so greatful for this site. It's so important panic sufferers interact with eachoth

Tell me about it. I've had it for 5 years. That's funny I always wish to myself that it was anemia, an ear infection or even a brain tumor like myself and everybody thought when they really started hitting me hard. I still have these daydreams that somebody will tell me it was something else, the problem be fixed & the symptoms would STOP! I have a big family too and a couple friends. The usual thing I used to hear was "it's just all in your head there's nothing wrong with you." Or my uncle's famous line "They told me I had anxiety too. I don't know how bad it is to your extent, but I think it was because of some of the drugs you did." YEAH step in my head for a day & see what it's like going through this all. Ha I used to spend so long in the bathroom fixing myself up , people always told me I was worse then a woman LOL! I've been getting that not feeling human feeling alot lately too I really don't care anymore either too much how I look I haven't been shaving and all that much anymore cuz I hardly ever get out of the house anymore either... but now that I think about it I haven't got that heart beating fast & faint feeling in the shower for a while. But believe me I know what your talking about. I always liked & still do pulling the plug in the tub & put the shower head on & let warm water fill up & pour on me & lay there in the bath tub.sometimes with a drink by me too. That relaxes me alot. I usually prefer baths over showers they can be very relaxing.

Anxietygirl - I know what you mean about wanting to find the miracle cure. I just want to wake up the old me and forget this hell ever happened to me. This is so frustrating and depressing.