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9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

Thank you. I am trying hard to be strong. Drinking teas and lots of water. I'm really trying to focus on the here and now I need to stop focusing on the past and future. I feel like I am becoming depressed and I know how my emotions work and I always tend to focus on the negative no matter how hard I try to stop myself. This time around something is different though. I can't place what it is but I am letting myself take pride in how I have gone this far <--- something I don't tend to let myself do as I'm scared of failing and disappointment from myself and those around me . I am. Hoping to attend an AA meeting next week ( just afraid to go alone ). I hope I stick to it! Thanks again everyone

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 11215

Welcome Elektra,

I am sorry to read how you have been feeling. You are so strong for fighting this. We will be here to support you every step of the way. The first and hardest step is making the choice you did to stop and getting through the withdrawal. The hardest part will be over soon.

It sounds like you are being super brave despite all of the pain and discomfort. Great work! How are you taking care of yourself during this? How are you feeling now?

Ashley, Health Educator

Here to help :)

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 100

Hi Elektra, good for you choosing to do something about the way you feel. It takes a lot of courage to open up to other people and admit you feel awful. 'Social' drinking wasn't for me either... I had fallen into a pattern of drinking alone at home and trying to keep it secret from my family, but still I would say and do the stupidest things when I was drunk and feel devastated with remorse afterwards, not to mention crippled with the hangovers. That combination led me to my emotional rock bottom just over two years ago. Then I made up my mind to do something about my drinking, came to this forum and found the courage to go to a meeting.... and today... I'm no longer drinking or thinking about drinking. It's an amazing sense of freedom. For me it was the meetings and what I learned there which helped the most. I've written more about it on my blog if you're interested. Wishing you strength for today, you are not alone!

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

Kirk and Kez, thank you! The kind words and advice I am getting from here is actually keeping me motivated. I don't want to offend anyone but I really took a chance in joing a group like this and I am glad I did. Maybe I can get myself to go to a meeting one day? I find myself at a point where I am torn between having that first drink and knowing to distract myself but then it's like instead of talking myself out of it I start thinking of reasons to make it okay. I need to do this I need to keep it up I don't think I will ever be able to drink "socially". How are all of you doing? How long has it been since you have stopped? Or starting trying to?

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 94

Also, that strength might be invisible to much of the outside world, but to people who know what you are going through, it is clear that you`re stronger than many people will ever know and ever be.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 94

Hey Elektra,

I'm not the best for advice.. but I am here with my support. Take Dave's words and keep reminding yourself of how strong you've been so far. You are worth it; that strength is real strength and you deserve to take credit for that strength and keep it going. Do whatever you think you need to do to keep it up. You're worth it and your life is worth it. Thinking of you.

Kez

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 28

Hi Elektra, I want to just reiterate some the best advice I've read on here the during my first week. I was confused what was triggering me to drink, and I found not being in touch with my emotions was a huge trigger. I know it's tough when your drinking or coming off of drinking to really be in touch with your psychological state since you are purposely numbing it. I'll give Dave big kudos for posting this because it's so true- and it stuck with me over the last week. Might be paraphrasing but anyways. Don't let yourself "get to high or to low" and be aware when you start feeling like this. Keeping an even keel has helped me tremendously. Especially getting to low... be aware and do anything (besides drinking...) to change your thought process at that moment. Don't let it perpetuate and keep you down. Then you just want to numb the thoughts and your back on the roller coaster. Keep going! -K

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 20

Thank you Dave848 and Foxman, such a shock to me to have actually gone 6 days now. I am actually not as anxious as I thought I would be at this point after suffering major panic attacks for a long time. Still everything is hazy I am able to get out of bed now and I'm not as cold or shaky.. Still so worried about future cravings.. Saying no is a tough one. Also.. Actually letting myself feel excited or accomplished when I succeed is something I need to work on. I have worked really hard not to "feel" excited or "proud" i. a long time because of the disappointment that comes with it. Thanks again it's nice to know I'm not alone

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1562

Has anyone been here and gotten past it? Too scared to go to an AA meeting ashamed of who I am .

Nobody goes to AA on a wining streak. I was emotionally bankrupt when i reached AA after trying all the other methods out there. The people in AA welcomed me with much compassion. They knew how we all feel coming off alcohol, angry, cranky.....And when the fog cleared a bit, they shared with me that I have to have a attitude shift and that comes by working the 12 steps. Just going to meetings may momentarily give relief but on the long run, if I have to go through life during good times and bad times I have to rely on the relationship I build with my higher power. You may call it just plain awareness or consciousness.

9 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1009

Hi Elektra,

You have nothing to be ashamed about. And you are definitely not alone. There are people here that are thinking of you, me included, so please reach out as you have and share your thoughts. It will get better. You really need to focus on your nutrition, especially the vitamins that your really low on like vitamin B, C, D, E...And stay hydrated. Drink LOT'S of water. De-hydration is a huge source of head aches. It sounds like your blood sugars are crashing as well. How is your nutrition. I remember when I quit, after an extended binge, I felt terrible for days afterwards. Your body will rebalance itself soon enough. You can do this Elektra. You're going to feel better soon. Please hang in there. I know Fridays are tough. Stay focused. Feel free to email me. My email is on my blog.

I really admire your strength and how well you're handling this challenge. stay strong.

All the best,

Dave

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