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100 days is a great accomplishment and you're definitely not back to square one. Triggers are powerful things. That's why planning ahead is so important. You've identified a very important triggers that has its roots somewhere beyond the activity of drinking alcohol. Drinking is just a means to resolve it. Many people drink to "fit in". It is often a primary reason they drink and can be a catalyst for drinking problems. You've done very well to recognize that. Would it not make sense to focus on the reasons why you feel you don't fit in and understand and resolve that? Hopefully it is an area they focus on during your retreat and not just a 12 step program.
How are you doing now? Are you still drinking, until you go to the retreat?
This is the peculiar mental twist the book, alcoholics anonymous talks over and over. You rightly called it the switch. Its the blind spot where your mind goes blank, does not think about the consequences, just focusses on the effect that 1st drink would have on us. Then we succumb to that thought. Thats the insanity, powerlessness. Enjoy the retreat and hopefully you will find a solution there. If not, you always have AA.
Alcohol is cunning baffling and powerful. That is why I am forced to do whatever it take to stay sober. Good for you for committing to the treatment center. I wish I could have gone. I found out the cost was $16,000 Canadian dollars that made it impossible for me to go. My first 3 months where a so painful happy one minute mad the next I would cry at the drop of a hat.
Unfortunately I have some bad news... I got to my milestone that I was so focused on then caved in a few days later. I've had a week of drinking... not good. My analogy is a batman in cricket (I realize a lot of you don't follow cricket in your countries). Anyway, getting to a century is a big achievement and often the - professional - sportsmen get there and then lose concentration and get out a little later on 102/103 or 104 runs. I feel proud I got there. Three months is great. But a failure that I lost it so soon after.
Anyway... I've enrolled in a resort/retreat in Thailand that focuses on addictions and relationships. I'll stay there for about 5 weeks.
I know it's not the best plan, but I've given in to the bottle and I'll drink for the next few weeks then stop when I get to the retreat January 5th.
I wish I had a valid reason for giving in to share with this community, but I don't. I wasn't overly stressed at work, not depressed, not bored. Actually, to be honest it was one of my triggers. I was out with a girl and she was drinking and I guess I wanted to fit in... or maybe be on the 'same level' as her. It's funny that 'alcoholic switch' that goes off. Once it's triggered you convince yourself you 'need' that drink.
Anyway.. here I am. I wouldn't say back to square one as I've learned a lot over the last 100 days, but definitely a step backwards. I'm looking forward to this retreat to learn some valuable life skills and sober up.
Fantastic on you! Very, very happy for you. What are some of the tools you used to accomplish your sobriety? Do you have any advise you'd care to share?
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