Right now, I dont feel like saying something smart or to analyse too much... It is about time for a confession. I have read around a lot on this site and it seems like the wine trap is increasingly dangerous to us women. I grew up being fed the notion that alcoholics were the "A-team" hanging around in parks, starting early on their beer and steeping it up until they were a nuisance to everyone passing. So having that half glass of wine in the evening when cooking, the other half glass at dinner and later another glass when doing the paper job, just seemed normal to me. But having wine every other day after the hard day of work, training and childrens activity is no longer a pleasure. I don't know if I crave it, but I need some way to reduce the stress level and to turn of the Duracell rabbit in me. Hence I admit that I like that little buzz that one or two glasses of wine give me. My problem is that Im tall and slim and a bad eater. So if I have a third glass, I will for sure fall asleep. I made a decision a week ago, to not deprive myself entirely from the buzz, but to moderate it as much as I could. I decided to not drink wine at all, but to change to a beer or a cidre, which might mellow my stress at a much slower rate and allow me to stay more in control of what I am doing. It has worked so far, and it has made a difference. From here I hope being able to move on.... Shame and guilt are so heavy to carry, especially when you have children...
