Well my heart is beating out of my chest right now. I am new to this site and it has taken me a long time to finally admit i am a alcoholic :( .. Still a hard word to say but i know its the only way to move forward. I am lucky because my family and friends are 110% behind me, but yet I feel alone. I am so grateful to have come across this site and intend to use it to its full extent. Jacq i relate so much to you, i am the worst when i am alone. My go to is whisky and it truly finally scared me when i realized just how i could polish off a smaller bottle in one afternoon/evening and i NEVER can stop at just 1 or 2 no matter how much i try to convince myself. It has started to affect my marriage and friendships so i know i MUST make a change and stop making excuses for myself. Well i seem to be rattleing on, im learning how to manover around this site so any help/suggestions are truly appreciated. I have not had a drink since monday, i am craving it ALOT but i just keep reading this site and its helping.