Roses The important thing to remember is that all is not lost. You've gained so much in your smobriety this past year and however many months. Build on the good that you've done for yourself instead of beating yourself up for having a weak moment. I know how hard it is to stop and that's the reason I let my active addiction go on for over 40 years. Get mad as hell at your addiction and tell yourself that I'll have no more of it. I'm mad as hell and I'm not willing to accept this any longer. Do whatever you need to do to get through the next couple of days. Ice water , healthy snacks and putting yourself on a five minute basis if need be. Dig your heels in the ground and get tough like I know you can and resolve not to be pushed around any longer. Excellent for you for not smoking today, breather