Oh no.,.. Brenda,,,,,don't get weepy, get mad,,,,,,,just keep telling yourself that cigarettes cost too much,,,,,that has been a huge motviator for me too................no lies. As for the chemical warfare that is going on in your mind, all us bi-polars have to admitt that we're crazy, so that we can talk back to the nicodemon and not feel too weird about it. I mean really, who would understand the internal dialog that we go through, with ourselves about something so lame,,,,,as inhaling carbon monoxide, and tar, and stuff they use to embalm bodies after you die??????? I mean really, how did this nicodemon dude, wiggle its way into our lives anyway???? what is so appealing, about lung cancer? yellow teeth, and being tied to something that costs a fortune? I am so rooting for you, because we have connected here, and I feel your emotional state of mind too. Have you ever heard of cognative therapy? thats where you use self talk to change things.......thats why its so important to write on this website, because it is a form of self talk too. My husband let me order 10 more tins of juju stxs, with his american express, cuse he knows that company is going out of busness, and he knows they have helped me termendously in quitting, and yet he is still smoking too.....he dosn't like the juju stxs...........but he is proud of me for quitting. And he figures anything that works is worth the expense.............are your rewarding yourself like your supposed to???? Maybe a baskin robbins ice cream cone would hit the spot........it cost about the same as a pack of ciggs but you deserve it. Look at you...............83......83.......83 days......whoooohooo...............I have 21. I want to be just like you. Jules
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/2/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 21
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 420
Amount Saved: $136.50
Life Gained:Days: 2
Hrs: 1
Mins: 23
Seconds: 44