So it's late afternoon here. That means the majority of you guys are sleeping tight right now. One of the problems with this set up. It doesn't always work for me to post and wait for 5 responses. It's a ghost town Jim!!
I posted and read a little and started to get off but decided to just gripe my way through "not-smoking". You know how sometimes, even when it's difficult, it's not too bad. Other times you feel like the act of "not-smoking" is a very physical and damn near impossible thing. You need someone to talk to you while you're "not-smoking" to be the light at the end of the small tunnel, the "follow my voice" person, the "you're not alone" person.
I'm not going to smoke. I know that. I'm positive. I'm just foggy and craving and lonely with it.
This is the silent time for me. I can't call my "crutches" in the states because they're asleep. It's the time of day when I feel most alone here in the country that's wonderful, but just isn't my home. It's definitely when, on any other Saturday, I would have grabbed a book and a smoke and hustled outside to get lost again. And sometimes I just feel that more than others.
On another note, we really do need a section of these forums labeled "*****ing and moaning"!!!!
Just for crazies like me. Forgive me, the kids just won't stop asking me questions (I made one of them cry with my bad mood - guilt) and I screwed up lunch (I can't cook), and I'm sun burned (very, very badly). Things seem to just be weighing on me today.
Thanks for listening. My rant helped.
Angie
My Milage:My Quit Date: 12/30/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 18
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 216
Amount Saved: $95.04
Life Gained:Days: 1
Hrs: 14
Mins: 43
Seconds: 36