Thanks everyone. Yes, I recall tough times for me between the 70 - 100 day point in my last quit. I almost failed several times in that time frame. I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for what I know is coming.
To me, when you first quit, the demon shouts at you. It's easy to ignore someone who's shouting at you. You can turn that off. BUT...
It's not so easy to ignore someone who's whispering what you want to hear in your ear. And that's exactly what this addiction does to me as I progress through a quit. I have yet to go through the "OK you proved it, you can quit, so now just one won't hurt you" phase of my quit, but it's coming I fear. I've caught myself bargaining and rationalizing lately. Thoughts like, what would having one in the morning and one at night hurt? Would that be so bad?
When sense returns the answer is yes, it would be devastating.
I'm digging in my heels and getting ready for the next stage of this quit.
At 50 days I'm still actively quitting. When I hit the beach I'll consider myself quit. Once I'm on the beach I'll go into maintenance mode and just hold my ground. I still have a ways to go yet so, I hope you'll all continue to put up with me for a while. I need this place in my life right now.
STILL WINNING!
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/6/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 51
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,530
Amount Saved: $351.90
Life Gained:Days: 8
Hrs: 11
Mins: 56
Seconds: 46