and I thought that the first two weeks were the worst part of the quit. Tonight I see that people are still struggling at 50 and even at 100 days.
I guess that my quit has been pretty easy because of all the pain medication that I take, from a physical standpoint anyway. I still have the "I wants" real bad but so far have been able to beat them down. I don't know what I will do if I start having dreams about smoking. I knew this was a long term commitment, I just didn't think about having cravings 50 or 100 days after quitting. So, when does it get easier? Does it get easier? Are we all sentenced to be smokeaholics, one day at a time, for the rest of our lives?
Now, having said that, I have committed to not smoking and I will do everything I can to stay smoke free. On the other hand if I was told tomorrow that I have cancer and a limited time left to live I would go straight to a store and buy cigarettes.
My girlfriend and I spent the evening making out my living will and I gave her Power of Attorney for me just in case my surgery goes wrong. No life as a vegetable for me. If it goes wrong, turn off the machines and let me go. Make me comfortable but let me go.
OK, so I'm getting a little morbid here. Everything that is going on is a little depressing. I'm done venting. Thanks for reading.
Steve
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/13/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 14
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 210
Amount Saved: $29.40
Life Gained:Days: 2
Hrs: 13
Mins: 50
Seconds: 14
