Hi Kev,
WOW - look at that 117 days! And getting near the 3,000 not smoked too! That is absolutely fantastic. Well done, you.
I was struck by one of your previous quotes :
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I've ended quits within seconds of being out of sight before.
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Quitting smoking is about being honest with ourselves about addiction. My reading of the above situation is that you always assumed that you would fail, and therefore you just waited for the opportunity to 'get it over with.' You could almost say that you planned to fail.
If you are going to break this pattern, then you need to make yourself accountable to yourself, and not to other people. No-one made you break your previous quits. You lit the cigarette - no-one else was involved in that decision. This will be over when you, Kev, decide to take control. Kev says 'No'. Kev plans to succeed.
So Yes, it is time to start emerging from the house...but step by step....don't get straight down the pub for a drinking session! You need to start making new non-smoking memories. Everytime you do something where you previously would smoke is going to be a trigger. But when you change history, and do not smoke, you create a new non-smoking memory. You start to kill triggers one by one. But you Kev must remain in charge. You don't have to do a lot of pre-planning, but as you walk into that shopping centre you must mentally steel yourself....I Kev will not buy cigarettes during this shopping trip. What are you going to do if you get a really strong urge (count to 100?, walk into a book/music shop?). Plan to delay. Plan an escape. Plan to succeed.
You can do this, Kev!
Lizzie :)
PS I hate dentists too! I had a filling fall out last year, and I am only just next Monday going to get it 'sorted.' I finally gave myself a slap on the wrist and said "do you want teeth or not?!". So I made the appointment. :8o:
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]4/23/2003
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1658
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 24,870
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �6,217.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 165 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 40 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30
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$9,168.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 811
Hours: 4
Minutes: 19
Seconds: 6
Life Gained
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6112
Smoke Free Days
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36,672
Cigarettes Not Smoked
