Hi Lizzie,
I think your upbeat post helped me a lot today. Thank you so much! I didn't see any criticism, only good advice based on fact. Yes you are a lot more optimistic than I am about me succeeding. I am sure of that. Maybe that will change naturally as the days pass. I want to be a Lizzie and succeed at quitting. Hope that doesn't sound rubbish.
'You learn that you can actually talk yourself into either 1) succeeding 2) failing.'
I think I may have been talking myself into the latter by thinking that the fight to stay smokefree was already lost. When in fact, I haven't smoked and am therefore still quit! After reading your post the rot seems to have stopped and hopefully I can rebuild and regroup a more positive view again.
Before I do, I'm going to make some observations :
1) It has been noted that all I do now is work or sleep. I never go out unless supervised as I don't trust myself not to smoke.
2) It's not all negative stuff, I do think about how great it is to not smoke sometimes.
3) Because of (1), it seems that I am waiting for a lonely death most of the time.
4) I have learnt that daydreams are triggers too.
5) I should concentrate on the one other person at work who has successfully managed to quit and not the many that relapsed trying to identify why I should relapse.
6) Thinking positive is a lot easier said than done when 'quit affected'
7) I have to keep positive in order to not convince myself that I am a useless quitter and should start smoking to avoid a longer painful fruitless journey.
8) I am really glad I am reading about someone elses experiences during this time. It doesn't make me feel so alone. It has actually given me hope.
9) It really does pay to stick close to these forums.
So thank you very much! I am going to make the entire weekend smokefree.
I got to show my mum what great advice you have given me (thats all of you btw), she knows what a great caring bunch you are and how much you have helped me through.
From me, a HUGE BIG HUG.
Right, yes, Rewards are important as they do something that my brain cannot manufacture at the moment without help (its waiting to be rewarded with nicotine). Todays one is :
'Nothing Much - A Best of Minus' - MP3
It is a label I very much look forward to hearing as it is very much quality minimal techno. Normally I can't justify spending out the extra on it. But now I have a reason. I am listening to it whilst I write this post. I hope the chilledness (compared to recently) is coming across.
Until tomorrow.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/12/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 94
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,350
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �394.80
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34