...this time! I wanted to update my "help" post for everyone who took the time to stop in & offer their suuport & encouragement.
I was at the same friend's house tonight, watching the premiere of Desperate Housewives, and I had not one smoking thought the whole time! I had absolutely no problem driving past the very same store that sang such a siren song on Thursday night. I did stay in the far lane until I was past the turnoff to it, though. Why get cocky?
I still don't know waht happened that night, although some people here who are really, really smart have given me some ideas. You know who you are.
I do know what DIDN'T happen though, I didn't smoke, & if it were not for all of you & the promise I made, I know I would have. So thanks for being there, both before & after.
I learned from this near-disaster, & from you really, really smart people, that I still have work to do, not just on triggers but on the emotional part of the quit. This might actually be the hardest part now, because I think I have to go deeper into that stuff than I was prepared to go.
It's like I've had a little vacation from the hard work part of it. Since about 90 days, I have really felt strong & positive & like I could really beat the junkie. I still feel that I can, but it's back to the reality of it being work now, & really putting in effort instead of just laying back & watching it come together.
So here I go, with steel-toed boots, hard hat (wrapped in tinfoil, it can't hurt!), a toolbelt full of coping strategies and lanyard tied off to the SSC!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 141
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,820
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,551.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 14 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
