Butterfly, BIG HUG from me too. I hope that unrelated situation isn't too bad. There should be a group hug icon around here somewhere! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 25 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �4.20 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 8 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

Hey big mate!!!! STOP IT! Don't pick on yourself... How many times do I have to tell you how much I admire you young 'un? me ((( BIG HUG )))))) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 339 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,458 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �1,779.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 66 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31

Last night, I got a glimpse of what it was like to quit again. I've often thought that the "older" we get in our quits, the more we forget what it was like. I've thought that, but until last night, I didn't know whether it was true or not. It's true. So, if I seem impatient with people sometimes, I guess it's because I haven't gone through the initial withdrawals and learning to live without smoking in a long time. Last night, I had to deal with a personal issue unrelated to quitting smoking, but the "take it 5 minutes at a time" routine became very real to me once again. Wanting to do something that I know I shouldn't, telling myself that I won't do it just for right now, blah, blah, blah. Sounds very familiar, right? Well, since that feeling was so familiar, I actually started craving cigarettes. It was like my mind recognized this feeling (from quitting smoking) and therefore, brought back memories of quitting, so I started craving hard. No worries - my quit is nowhere close to being in jeapordy. So, I started realizing just how hard it was to quit in the beginning. Not being able to get your mind off of it and concentrate on something else, being tempted just so you can get some relief. Although this is a different situation, it's still very much the same. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I'm not really in a good place right now. If I'm not here much for a while, it's because I've got to get myself straight right now. For those of you who have a religious faith, all the prayers I can get right now are graciously accepted. It's really rough right now, but I know that I'll get through and will continue to be smoke free. I'm sorry if I have hurt anyone recently or have caused anyone to feel attacked. Even though this has been going on for a while now, I didn't realize until last night just how much it has been affecting all areas of my life. I don't know why I've been writing this... I guess to explain why I've been the way I have been lately and also to apologize for any hurt feelings, and also just to get this off my chest. That always helps. Thanks for listening. Crave the Quit! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 756 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 18,900 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,122.28 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 53 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44