wow, Penitent,
that is a very powerful statement "feeling completely whole and free for the first time in my adult life".
I am so much newer in my quit; but I am starting to feel so much more in control of my life. Like, I will speak what I really feel or think, instead of lighting up a cigarette and being quiet. Or, I will decide what I want to do instead of just saying "yes" to someone elses suggestions, because I don't want to go against what they want. (of course, I do it in a nice way!). For instance, a friend calls and says "I am making dinner tonight, so come on over after work". When I smoked, I would say "okay", whether I wanted to do it or not. Now, I can say, "I'm too tired tonight. I am going to stay in, or, I can't, I am going to the gym and reading a good book tonight". I do not know if I am explaining myself, but I bet you all know what I mean.
That is a beautiful poem Ladycigevictor (I love your name!). Thanks for taking the time to share it with us. And, I agree with you. The greatest benefits of quitting are mental; more self esteem, more confidence. I am so thankful that I found this website. The benefits go on and on!
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 18
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 432
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $90.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 40 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28