Hi all,
Given my recent knowledge, ie, coming on here as made me realise that i have suffered with panic since the age of 5-6yrys old. I'm now 43, and i hope quite sane, (mad laughter). I think the biggest problem, for me anyway, is that having these attacks all my life, even though i didnt realise what they were, have left me "shy" for want of a better word. "sensitive" would also be another good word to describe me. being those things can lead to their own problems, but not crazyness. I've said this before somewhere on this site, i'll say it again though. Panic attacks are really bad for your soul, they totally wear you out, making even the slightest problems in life seem overwhelming, and the mind gets tired too. which seems to let your thoughts run away with themselfs. I reckon its a bit like when you have flu, or if your a women, that Pre-mentral thingy, where the slightest noise rattles your brain and you just cant cope with stuff, so you end up throwing dishes at your hubby. For me this condition is very wearing, tired body, tired mind, and when that happens, seems the mind plays tricks or something. Thats not crazyness though. Course i'm speaking as someone who doesnt suffer depression, i've been lucky that way, so i dont know what that is like. But over tired body and soul can make you think you are losing your mind, for me anyway. Ive said this before too, my doctor told me that people who are crazy, dont know that they are, they dont care, or can think that everybody else is crazy, but not them. so to fear you are going crazy, really means that you arent, or you wouldnt notice a change in mood, or whatever it is thats causing you to feel so distressed at the time.
Best wishes
Mudslinger uk