Hey Terri, we must be right in sink with each other. I started feeling better this evening too.
Now you won't believe this.....After craving like a mad dog and singing the blues, heart and soul, I mentioned to husband that I really need something else for this "hand to mouth" thing. You know, just to stay busy. I'm so tired of all the stuff I've been chowing down on for the last 9 days. Anyway, my husband misunderstood because he was HALF listening to me and thought I said that I want a pack of smokes. Now you really won't believe this one.....He had another stash pack here, in case I got far too grumpy to live with, and had it hid in my roll top desk. He was also stashing the pack back in case I caved in. I rarely use the desk and it's a good thing because I would have found that pack during my weakest point. He didn't buy the pack but there's this lady that he runs into at local store when he stops to fill up his rig with gas. This lady buys a whole pack of cigarettes, takes only three of them out of the pack, and gives the rest to Steve to give to me so that she won't smoke anymore than those three. Well, that's the pack he had stashed. He told me that he stashed that pack when I was on Day 2 of my quit!! So, when he misunderstood me tonight, he thought I was asking him to run down to the store to buy me a pack of smokes. So he walks over to the roll top desk, gets that pack of smokes, and tosses them to me. Girl, I was mad and shocked. I bellowed, "What the hell are you trying to do, blow my quit? I'm NOT a smoker. Don't you EVER bring cigarettes into this house again." I was furious and my husband was in shock because as I bellowed at him, I stormed over to him with those smokes, twisted them up in my hands, breaking them all to pieces, and handed 'em back to him. Wow!! Where did that come from?!! After all the belly aching and craving and belly aching more, I blew a gasket that my husband didn't have enough confidence in my quit to NOT bring those cigarettes home. My husband had this shocked look on his face but he was smiling at the same time because he wants me to quit so bad, he just didn't think I would with as much as I smoked. He had this look on his face as if to say, "Damn, she really means it this time." Then I had to exp