My job requires me, at times, to make very quick assessments, judgement, and take instantaneous action. It's no wonder then, that it doesn't spill over into my personal being. When a problem comes along, I feel the need to instantly solve it, and when it is obvious that I can't, I become angry and frustrated. As a smoker, I would light up, maybe a few, until I could see the way through. As a non-smoker I need to remind myself that I still need to do that....take some time...to figure it out. But mostly what I try to remind myself is that there are some things that I cannot control. That doesn't mean that it has to reflect badly on me. Maybe it's not my problem to solve. One thing I am trying to remember is that whether I smoke or not, things will work their way through, given time - just as it always has. Smoking has never solved the problems. I have, or they just worked themselves out.
When problems or thoughts weigh heavy on my mind, as they very often do, I need to remind myself that this obsessive worrying is 'just not working for me'. How about 'just not thinking about it'. The answer will come, not through the constant thinking about it necessarily, but perhaps clearer thinking comes from not making it a focus in our minds. I am trying to find peace, and I am through living in the moment as much as I can. It takes practice and well....time. The answers will come, I just need to be patient.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/10/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 15
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 308
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $172.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29
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Quit Meter
$330,794.25
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6033
Hours: 23
Minutes: 7
Seconds: 13
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45470
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
682,050
Cigarettes Not Smoked
