Morning Cheryl
You are very lucky to have such a supposrtive boss - when my attacks began again in September of last year, I missed a week of work - I tried to come in but it just wasnt working - I had to get out of here when it happened, no ifs ands or buts - I was giving into the panic and could not help it - I managed to get myself together and ahve been doing kind of okay - but I dont like to push it here at work - oen of my bosses is phenomenal and my co-workers who I have told about this situation have been very caring - they would sit with me in an empty office while I was shaking like a leaf and wait with me until the meds took effect - I think on some level my situation is hormonal - I am 46 years old and although not in menopause, at this age hormones start to fluctuate - and if you are predisposed to this horrible thing called panic, it makes it worse at times - I mean I have been the gamut of tests - blood tests, the whole heart doctor tests that you could think of, gynocologist - I tried this doctor who supposedly specialized in panic - he specialized in trying to make me poor - his fees were outrageous and didnt take my health - that didnt help my anxiety but it certainly snapped me out of the depression I was getting myself into - so I have to play it a day at a time as well - and knowing there are other people out there that have to deal with this makes you feel not so alone you know? In 1982 they didnt even have a name for it - that was the worst part of these attacks for me - back then and the reactions from people and doctors.
Well this is way too long - I will check back tomorrow and see how you are doing - I am rooting for you we can beat this, I know it!!
Deb
