Susanne, I would like to thank you for the encouraging words. We all need these words occasionally, to keep us going. I am learning to deal with these attacks. Fortunately the meds are helping me deal with them and of course when I start therapy, perhaps I will get a better understanding of what is going on with me. I live alone, so it is frightening. I spent the day with my family, which made me feel whole. Havent the presence of people around me, was quite comforting. I will write more soon and I hope everyone tried to enjoy their day. Hopefully all will get better soon........